this weekend was a good one i must say.
i had two bon fires and i made alot of new friends.
ya know, ive realized that things happen in the past so better things can happen in the future. 8 months ago i was a total mess. and i honestly thought my life was going to stay like that forever. and now i look back and im glad it happened because ive grown so much. i look back now and i cant even believe the way i acted and the way i handled the situation i was in. now i can look at that situation with an outside view and i am so thankful god made me go through that trial. im so thankful that he made me go through that because if i didnt, i never would of realized what a bad person that guy is. yes this trial does have to do with a boy, but it wasnt your normal break-up. only a few people really know what happened but most of you didnt even know i was in a relationship. anyways 8 months ago i was so blind. i thought everything about him was so perfect and that we would be happy forever. how pathetic of me. once my parents put an end to my friendship with him i literally broke down. he had been my best friend for so long and we talked about everything under the sun. i didnt go to school for days and i didnt talk to my parents for about a month. i was battling depression and i honestly didnt want to wake up in the morning. i didnt know what i was going to do with myself without that boy in my life. now 8 months later i look back and i am SO thankful my parents and god put an end to it. he isnt a good guy, hes been making bad choices for a while now and is no longer a member of the church. some days i miss him and i want to talk to him and i still think about him sometimes. a piece of my heart still loves him but i know that things will never be the same between us. im glad trials happen and i know they happen for a reason. i still struggle some days to be happy about all of this. but its days like this when i hear gods right hand men speak to me and i know things are going to turn out okay. hopefully things with that boy turn out okay too, he will always have a special place in my heart but for now, i just hope he starts on a better path to life and starts making better choices. i wish him the best of luck where ever he goes in life.
and as for me, i know my life is looking up.
who knows, maybe one day our paths will cross again.