i don't know what i want to do with my life. most days i wish i could stay this age forever. i love being seventeen, and i can tell being 18 is going to be pretty fun. honestly, i love my life right now. i've gotten rid of friends i don't need, and surrounded myself with people i love and care about. im just bracing myself for something to go wrong. my life has never been this good... and i feel like its too good to be true. anyway, i don't want to move away to utah state. i don't even know if i want to be a nurse. in fact, im pretty positive i don't want to go into nursing. but if i don't do nursing, what on earth will i do? i was always so sure of nursing that i never made a back up plan.... and now im lost. also, i don't even feel like going to utah state. i don't want to move away from home. i love my little town of pleasant grove. i love the people and my friends here. utah state is too far from home. i would go to uvu but im afraid i won't make any new friends because i'll be living at home. so here is the real question, do i stay at home and go to uvu and not make as many friends? or do i move away from home and leave everyone behind, and go to utah state and make a lot of friends? i don't even know.... im lost. screw college and everything about it. its weird how one day i can be so excited about moving out, and then the next day im a wreck about it. now seems like a good time to cry.. haha oh my.