i'm happy

this summer i've had a lot of time to myself, and i have learned to accept it and deal with it. in the past, alone time has been my enemy. i hated being alone, and i was instantly in a bad mood when i knew i would be spending a night by myself. i am the type of person who loves to go out, who loves to be with people and hates boredom. whiles i still love to go out and be surrounded by friends and action, i have accepted the fact that only i can make myself happy. before i can be happy spending time with anyone else, i first had to learn to be happy by myself. so, this summer i have spent a lot of time working on my patience, and i have taught myself how to be happy on m own. not only have i learned to be happy by myself, i have also learned that being alone is not the end of the world. i used to think that the only way i wouldn't be bored was if i was surrounded by other people and doing things. i have found that is not the case. i can be by myself and still have fun too.

the biggest thing i have learned through all of this is that you will not be truly happy until you can learn to make yourself happy. no amount of friends or guys you know or how many dates you go on is going to make you truly happy until you have learned to be happy alone. YOU are the only person that can make you happy, not others.

it took me so long to learn this and accept it. 19 years in fact. but, this summer has taught me above all that being alone is okay. and not only is it okay, i can be happy while being alone too.


i'm back

i've missed writing. writing has always been a way for me to work out my feelings when the inside of my head got too jumbled. over the last year, i haven't blogged much. my life picked up pace and blogging got pushed to the back burner while i was busy living my life. i've done a lot of thinking and i want blogging to be a part of my life again. i want to make the time to write out my thoughts so one day i can look back and see how much i've grown and changed.

i wont bother going back and writing out everything that's happened over the last few months. they have been months used for maturing, growing and hold memories dear to my heart. some really great things have happened over the past months, and i have written them all out, from start to finish and i had planned on publishing them, but i think i'll keep them in my drafts for now.

with the past in the past, i am going to start blogging about my life in the now. it's time i start writing again because i find that the more i write, the more i learn about myself. i am ready for this.

let's start from today. although many things in my life have changed, i'm still the same old me. for example, today i drove my boss' truck and crafted a little bit for my apartment. i am still melia, i still love the same things but i have also learned a lot of lessons and have set high goals for myself. and blogging is one of them.

so, without further adieu, lets get little country started again.



oh hey, it's been a minute so i thought i'd give you a slight update.
i moved back home from utah state for the summer, and for the last month i have been job searching like a crazy woman. i finally found work and that has been taking up most of my time. on the side i have been planning bridal showers and bachelorette parties. my best friend gets married in 6 days. i am so happy for her and i absolutely love the family she is marrying into. but, that is a complicated story for another time. my roommate ashley is leaving on her mission in a few weeks and i went to her farewell yesterday. it was super good to catch up with all of my friends from college. strawberry days is right around the corner and i'm not sure if i should be proud or embarrassed that my very best friend is going to be apart of the rodeo clown act this year. anyway, there is my life update in a few sentences. i wish it was august so i could move back up to logan. the end.


its been 10 days.

i never thought i'd actually say that i miss school. i have been at home for 10 days. thats 10 days that i haven't been in logan, 10 days that i haven't seen my roommates or hung out with jessica. its been over a week since i've stepped foot on campus. and you know what? i miss utah state like crazy. freshman year was the hardest year of my life, but it was also the greatest. i miss everything about school. i can't wait to get back up there in the fall and see everyone again. as hard as college is, and as much papers i have to write, i enjoy it so much.
i'm torn. as much as i love summer, i'm just ready for school to start again.
oh utah state, i love you so much.


stopping to catch my breath


my life has been nothing but a whirlwind recently. the days have blended together into one big blur and i couldn't tell you what i was doing a week ago. my days have been jam packed with fun and friends. the last few weeks have been outrageously busy. i've realized that as much as i wish, my life ain't slowing down. this fast pace is the new me.

the past few weeks have been a hurricane of emotions, but i am recovering. today is the first day in weeks that i haven't been bombarded with things to do. and honestly, i really just need to sit by myself for a few days and process everything that happened the last little while. i finally have a few minutes to myself, and i am going to soak it up.

now that i am home for the summer, it is time to get ready for angie's wedding, make summer plans and find a job. here i go again.

p.s. i haven't been home for even a week and i already miss logan so much. i cant wait until the fall to go back!


wrapping things up

my freshman year at utah state is coming to a close. while it has undoubtedly been the hardest year of my life, it has also been the most rewarding. from learning new things and learning about myself to meeting the most amazing people, this year has been full of ups and downs. i failed a few tests, skipped a few classes, got lost a number of times and wrote dozens of papers. i met some unbelievable people and found my best friend. i shared some amazing kisses and laughed until i cried. i learned to live on my own, and how to accept people for who they are.
i remember before the school year started, i was so worried about not having any friends, wondering if utah state was right for me and even wondering if i should go to school. a year later, i know with clarity that this is the right place for me. logan utah has become my home. while i still miss pleasant grove, logan is my favorite place to be. freshman year has been the greatest year of my life, and i am so sad to see it end. it is going to be hard for me to pack up my things as i'm moving out this week.
as this year ends, i am already excited out of my mind to start my sophomore year. i hope this summer flies by so i can move into my new apartment and start making memories with my future roommates. i'm already so excited for aggie football and everything else that comes along with a new school year. i am so happy that i chose to become an aggie. it has been the greatest decision i have ever made.


lucky me

let me just talk about this girl for a minute.
i am so glad that she got put into my life. she came into my life at the exact perfect time and its obvious that our friendship was meant to me. being a freshman in college, knowing no one, this girl stepped into my life and quickly became my best friend. it usually takes me a while to warm up to people, but she gave me a hug the first time we hung out and i'll never forget that. we instantly clicked and things have been great ever since. i'm so glad that she got put into my life at the time she did. everything fit so perfectly, and we became friends so smoothly. i'm proud that i get to call her my best friend and i am so blessed to be able to go through this phase of my life with her. going through this whole college experience with her is seriously the funnest thing ever. we just get each other, and its so easy to have fun with her. she holds my secrets, laughs at my jokes and best of all, she gives me a big dose of reality when i need it. any person that can keep up with my crazy boy drama is a keeper. she is my best friend and i am so glad i have her. i can not wait to live with her next year, and see what the future has in store for us. i'm sure it will have something to do with a lot of country boys and long drives. i know that we will be those kinds of friends that send christmas cards to each other thirty years down the road, and my kids will point and ask who is that? and i will tell my kids about my crazy best friend that i met at utah state. love you jess.


wrapping up

blogging... i have a love hate relationship with you. i'm here to give you another bull crap excuse that i've been too busy to write. so much is going on right now, and honestly, i just don't have as much time for blogging as i did in high school. school is getting super busy with finals just around the corner, and i have a lot of studying to do. but! summer is on its way with only a few weeks left of school and i can hardly wait. i'll be moving back home for the summer and although i'm so sad to be leaving my roommates and moving out of this apartment, i'm ready to go back home and spend some time with my friends and family.

so, although i have no pictures, here are some videos of my weekend.


dreaming of summer

this last weekend was a crazy one. saturday morning was a little hectic, due to a huge mess-up on my part. i made the biggest mistake thus far in my college career and i thought a grade in one of my classes was going to be ruined. good thing people are really forgiving, and my crappy saturday morning was somewhat salvaged. saturday afternoon i went home to spend easter with my family and friends. on saturday i had easter dinner with my second family and spent some quality time with my favorite people. saturday night we had our first fire of the season. there is nothing more relaxing than sitting around a fire with good buddies and making each other laugh. since having that fire, i've been so ready for summer to get here. me and josh were talking last night about all the fun things were going to do this summer. bring on the rodeos, concerts, camping, shooting and fires. this summer is going to be good.



today was PERFECT. i love being spontaneous, and i'd say a majority of my life is made up of spontaneous moments.  this afternoon happened to be one of those times. i was at lunch with a few friends, when a kid that i had just met asked if i wanted to go shooting with him. duh. i called up my best friend jessica and asked if she wanted to come with because i know she loves that kinda stuff as much as i do. we put our boots on, rounded up all the gear and headed up logan canyon. it was beautiful. it was the first time i had been up the canyon since last fall. 
we had the best time. i'm not the greatest shot, but i'm okay for a girl! not even the rain stopped us from having fun. i'm glad i went and i hope i can do it again soon. 

a day on old main hill

when the thermometer hits 50 degrees, the students of utah state come out from hibernating and migrate to the outdoors to enjoy the heat wave. yes, 50 degrees is considered really warm to the people that live here. i wore sandals to class and it was fantastic. it makes me so happy to have the sun back.
today was a perfect sunny day, so we did what every other student on campus was doing, and relaxed outside. there is a huge hill on campus that we call old main hill. and i'm not kidding when i say its a huge hill. people go snowboarding down it in the winter. that hill has provided me with a lot of good times over the winter, like sledding down it on lunch trays (story for another time). now that the snow has finally melted, it was nice to get outside and lay on the brown crunchy grass. while we were there, we had some fun sending snap chats, making up our own lyrics to songs and riding skateboards down old main. i'm so glad spring is here!

and here's a short stupid video for your enjoyment.


making plans.

i signed my first contract today, and i'm feeling super old. i put the deposit down and i'll officially be moving in on august 21st. i'll be living with three of the coolest girls in a really great place. i'm so excited. and i found out something weird today. one of my neighbors at the apartment complex is going to be this kid. so yeah, it should be interesting. but with that being said, i am beyond happy for whats in store.


this girl.

i am so lucky to have gotten the roommates that i did. before i met them, i was super nervous and i stalked them on facebook, wondering if we would get along. i don't know why i worried so much because we get along fantastically. they have grown to become some of my best friends, and i dread the day i have to move out and leave them. but one of my roommates, ashley, is going on a mission! last week we went to her house to watch her open her call. she is going to nauvoo, illinois speaking american sign language. i am so, so happy for her. i honestly couldn't have asked for a better roommate or friend. me and her have grown so close and i am going to miss her so much when she leaves. i'm proud of her choice to serve, but i'm sad to watch her go! and now, because i love her so much, here are some of ashley's hottest photos. 

but really though, thank you ashley for being the best roommate and providing me with endless entertainment! i love you! 


making plans

i re-did my blog. ya like it? okay, cool me too.

on monday i am going to put a deposit down on an apartment to live in next year. i'm feeling really grown up right about now. oh, and the best part about all of this? i'm living with my best friend, jessica. did you know that me and jessica met through blogging? last summer, i got a new follower on my blog, and when i checked out her blog i realized we had a lot of things in common. not only did we love the same things, but we were both going to be attending utah state as freshmen in the fall. well, one thing led to another and we became friends on facebook. once i moved up to logan, we met for the first time and instantly became friends. now, a year later, we are going to be living together. isn't it crazy how that happens? you just never know, someone that you follow today could be your roommate tomorrow. i love blogging for that reason.

i'm so excited for next year.